Midnight Postman

This is a letter that will never be delivered
It may reach its recipient, but only via some 3rd party
Forwarded...or CC'd, or something like that
Ive been the emotional rock of Gibraltar
Giving strength & stability to someone who couldn't stand on their own
Such a caring woman I am
Ive been the unknowing rebound
Giving love & attention to a man incapable of returning it
Clung so tight to a lost child & lost lover
Such a naive woman I am
All the water & cranberry juice in the world couldn't cleanse my body & soul of all the hurt
The girl who is such a horrible liar seems to lie to herself quite well
Toni Braxton urges me to just let go & let it flow
Seems easy enough & easier to sing...sounds good too
Damn if it ain't hard tho
I rediscovered a lost defense mechanism
One that Ive used in my younger days
Accepting the affection & attention of other men
Except now its like drinking a tall glass of tap water
Filling yet Unfufilling, Get it?
"Every man is different but the game wont change"
Well I'm tired of flipping these channels
When will I find something worth staying on?
...Until that day I keep my North Face on to protect me
Waiting for that dude to walk up & unzip & peel my exterior away
Yeah this letter may sound weird & jump but it's done
Fuck a format...Ready for change

Details

Waiting…
Personal time is what I want, you & me
Invitation only peep show, staring yours truly
I speak forbidden thoughts slowly into your ear
Words roll off my tongue and spill to the tip
And like honey letters fall & drip from my lips
Grab me from behind and hold on tight
Let’s fight for supremacy in the bedroom as we make love tonight
Watching me bounce on top you don’t mind taking the loss
Because I’m squeezing real tight and I’m making my pussy the boss
Until you flip the script, get it from the back & I can tell your mission is to tame
As I throw it back I try to fight the feeling

But then I lose control & I’m screaming your name
My walls grip tight like a vice & I can tell your all too ready to let go
So you pull it out and on my back you let it all go
Your kisses taste so sweet when all is said and done
It’s weird how even before we had sex papi I knew you were the one

The O7 She

I used to always play the background, maxin' in the lowkey life

Till a dude opened some doors, now Im loving the spotlight

Timid & shy was I, time passed I got older

Now Im too cocky for my own good with this chip on my shoulder

I was young playing with the fellas, you know the tom-boy type

That was way back when, since then Ive ditched that skin,

Now Im the mami fellas wanna wife

Soft skin shorty with a babyface

Bright & ambitious with tremendous faith

I stand firmly on my square, never dependent on a man

I do bad all by my damn self, because I want to & cause I can

You know Im Way, but you dont know me

Can you fade it? Baby then show me

Put your fork down darling, Im far too complex to digest

But I wonder if you'll be around long enough, for me to tell you the rest

-Way ♥

Distorted

An avid fan of what is suposed to be

I see green, when it's really grey

Forgive my naive mistakes

I see reality, when it's really science fiction

The glasses I wear do little to correct the visions I see

What do I need to fix my distorted sight?

I see love & care but it's really a joke

And it's the kind of joke that everyone knows about except for you

I see people in need, instead it's people on the cusp of deceit...

I used to lose sleep before these revelations

...Still cant sleep, thinking & thinking

Chasing pavements? It's such a fitting description

Going after an unatainable love...dream...hope

Sidewalks & streets of pavement going on for miles and miles

I feel like Ive been looking down at the street...

Following the love & the friendship I thought was at the end

Impossible

Now here I am, on the curb of somewhere I dont even know

Looking around, sad, confused...alone

Im stuck here with this distorted vision & these glasses that do little to fix them

I cant call anyone for help, no one knows where I am

And no one cares where I am, Ive shunned so many

I look up at the sky that I thought was blue & see grey

So on this curb is where I'll stay

And wait for the sun to come out

Then...thats when I'll be able to see again

Numb

What you do...when everything you thought you knew & felt was a lie?
When your so fed up with people and their malicious intent? their disregard for human emotion?
Honestly I am, and I feel myself goin Numb
No, Ive never been a good person but for the past 2 years Ive tried to be

I care for people way more than I should & I see to it that other people are happy before I see to it that IM happy

Ive tried to be a selfless person because honestly I feel thats what the world needs...but why give my all?

I gave my heart away to a guy back in 07 and it was the first time in my life that I had ever done that.
I was in so deep as far as feelings go that I held him to the highest standard as far as dudes go
No dude was ever good enough for me after him because I felt he was the on I was truely supposed to be with...But what do you do when all you felt was a lie?

I dont know if Im making any sense but, Lord knows Im trying so bare with me...I just feel numb & alone Ive been deceived by not 1 but 3 people in the last 12 hours
Crazy shit right? And the fact that I fu*k with very little people is all the more reason why its worse
Little by little the world is becoming a cold place.

People care less and less about the next person, believe me Ive been there before...I feel like Im there now

But who cares right?

Here's A Toast...

This is a, toast to the most known unknowns

The phony frauds who put up fronts demand respect get shown?

Ehh wrong, your E.T to me, so bitch phone home

Phil & Lil ass bitches come correct, cause Im grown

Hate on a chief like me? With a aura so strong?

Ho please miss me with that, you drool lies, I spit facts

You twist words, I twist caps, you type keys, I lean back

Quack Quack you on that duck shit, learn to stay true

If you was real about your shit then I could fuck with you boo

You tryna stomp with the big dawgs wearing a size 2 shoe

From pampers to pullups like all a sudden you grew?

Bitch booo! To the left of the stage ma'am please?

And while your at it, ya mind acting your age ma'am please?

You a trief lil youngin', think you a lady chick please

Bet you easy like Sunday Morning riding on a warm breeze

My bad My bad maybe this was all a tad too much

But maybe next time you'll know your role and shut the fuck up

Ree-al-ittee Show

This must be a Reality Show & its staring you right?

Full of drama, bullshit & on every night

A character for every mood happy, flirty, dumb & confused

And those moody attitudes keep viewers glued to the tube

They can relate, cause like me, they took the bait

Caught up in the endless void of lies you orchestrate

Shit I cant fake, cause I was glad to be your Leading Lady

Even when the picture fuzzed & got hazy, I would never leave my baby

But then, Oh Shit plot twist dun dun dun

My character 'sposed to get axed & you holding the gun

This ain't right, I devoted my time & that shit was a go

Too bad shit flipped cause you more concerned with staring ya show

Now you tryna fade away like Dr.Jay & bounce like Swoosh?

Fuck that, Treez got that fire so we can blow like Boosh

The honest truth? I dug you perceptually, but I'll go

Hope you figure things out in your life, The Reality Show